Snowing, snowing,snowing! yeh keep snowing! but no rain please. i dont wanna get my ass on the ground over and over again! lol
Anyway,it's kinda tense lately. feeling so tired and sick of life...i mean the life here. there're many times i ask myself what the hell i am doing here...i couldnt find the answer...i miss my life in bangkok. it's tough but at least i dont have to be anyone's slave! damn the more i think the more i get pissed! i dont understand how people could be this selfish, egoist! working every freaking day? and when i ask for day off they got pissed and looking for the new one? well,good luck with that asshole! excuse my french lol
at this moment friends help a lot. thanks for ur support my dear!
geeez im so confused everytime i think about the future. what am i gonna do after i done with the au pair? i can barely speak the language so it would be hard to get a good job. study...need the freaking scholarship to support my stay....get married? hell it would be the last thing on earth i would do! i dont understand why people always push me to get married! last time i visited a thai friend who got married to a norwegian guy and just got a new born baby, she said i should get married soon so i dont have to go back to thailand or i should get pregnant so it will be a lot easier. i was like WTF? im not so desperated and i dont need a shortcut like that! of course i need to stay here and im dying to have a baby of my own. but frankly,i couldnt see myself living with someone for a long long long period....at this point i start to wondering who's really got issue! lol
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